Well at least tonight I am a night person. Just laid my daughter down for the 100th time. I really hope that she goes to sleep this time, otherwise I might just fall over. Kinda messed up my work-out plans though. I wanted to get on the tredmill as soon as she went to sleep and get some walking done, then do a little ab and arm excercises. I do like to workout later in the afternoon. I like to finish dinner,wait about an 1 1/2 or so, and then excercise. It really does the oppisite for me, when it helps to get some going, but with me, helps me to rest easier. Kinda dissapointed that I didn't get my workout in. I am just way to sleepy now, and I just heard her scream! Ughh, I really have to get her on a routine again. These REALLY late nights are starting to take it's toll on me during the day.
I did want to add that I am going to do my best to stay away from the scale until my weigh-in days which are going to be on Monday's since I started this monday. The last time that I started a diet and actually succeeded and lost 136 pounds it was in August. My hopes are that with starting a little earlier in the year, I will have time to lose enough weight to look really great in my nursing graduation and pinning ceremony. I know that if I work really hard and stick to it just as I did before I can make it. This time the difference is that I am not depriving myself. I am doing weight watchers and get 57 points a day. And for anyone that has ever done WW knows that quite a few points. And I love the fact that the fresh fruits and veggies are 0 points. Really can't get any better than that. Because I am not that big on meat anyway. Everything that I have been eating is either chicken or turkey. I had no idea there are so many products that are made with turkey and are honestly good!!! I found the best turkey hot dogs that are only 1 point each. But I am careful with those types of meats because they contain lots of sodium, which can raise blood pressure and make you retain water.
As far as my health goes, I am on blood pressure medicine, and it is controlled with that. I am also pretty sure that I am
type II diabetic, but undiagnosed. I refuse to let myself get to the point that I have to put a needle in my body several times a day!!
And with being in Nursing school I am learning all the things that being obese to morbidly obese can do to each and every part-organ of your body. My dauhter is not going to grow up living with a mother that is overweight and without the energy to do or go any where with her. When she gets older I want to do everything with her, and I don't want her embarassed of me. I want her to tell people proudly that I am her mama. So the journey continues, and I will most definetly get my workout in tomorrow because I will get my husband to watch her for me. He is the best husband a woman could as for. He met me when I was 170 lbs and he has stuck by me through all the weight that I have gained. He tells me he loves me no matter what size I am, all he wants is for me to be healthy. And for that, I have to get this weight off. I want to be the woman that he met, not only for him, and my daughter, but for me. Can't wait until the first time that I am able to go to a theme park, not be embarassed, not worrying about whether I will fit on the ride, and not being too tired to walk around. So I dream of the days to come, and make them a reality day by day.
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